Just sharing my thoughts..............

I don't know what to do....I don't know what to say.....it's hard to explain...i'm a bit stuck in a situation where it is very hard to escape....i want to have peace....i want to be MYSELF, really ME...i want to have full happiness...i just want to wake up, YES! this is it.....what will I do? It seems what I really want is not what I get nor what i have....it's a BIG QUERY in my life...., it's frustrating, it's irritating....yet that is the fact....GOTTA GO.....Gotta RUN.....Gotta swim to this drowning situation....am i going to ignore this....can't do that...can't solve it....can't move...i'm piss of it.....?????????????WHAT!